I finished Cupcake’s memoir today. Very inspiring. It made me feel like I should quit complaining about giving up wine and just get on with things. After all, I have a pretty great life and if this is the biggest sacrifice I have to make, then so be it. Plenty of people would love to trade problems with me I’m sure.
As I was reading, it also occurred to me that the really good part of her recovery came after a year, or even longer, sober. And, come to think of it, every time I read a memoir related to sobriety I feel a little surprised when it keeps going beyond a year sober. After all, the big stuff happens in the first 90 days, right?
Well, this got me to wondering – were the changes I saw after six months of sobriety perhaps not the only ones to come? Is it possible that I stopped “five minutes before the miracle” could happen? What would life be like now if I had kept going?
I do recall feeling a little let down sometimes. A sort of – is this it? feeling would come over me. Now I’m thinking maybe I didn’t give it enough time. Not only time to get over the compulsion to drink, to find healthy sleep patterns, and to relearn how to entertain and self-soothe without alcohol. I pretty much accomplished those things. Maybe I didn’t give it enough time to gain what I really needed for long term sobriety – a completely new perspective. To see alcohol for what it really is and to know deep down that I don’t need it in my life.
Ok sober warriors – you know who you are – tell me please, how long does it take? 🙂
Still a bit feverish today but I do think I’m on the mend.
Happy sober day,
Jen (without wine) 😉