I am realizing, little by little, day by day, what it means to build a new life. Not from scratch, of course, but still new in many ways. And if this new life is going to last, it needs to be honest and real. It needs to be authentic.
I have spent a lot of my life worrying about what other people think. I have often, very often, made decisions or taken action in ways that I thought would please others. And I rewarded myself for those compromises with alcohol.
Well now I am done with all of that.
But what does it mean? Now what?
I think it means taking things slowly. I think it means relaxing into the process a little bit. This new life doesn’t need to be built in one day, one month, or even one year. The timeline isn’t important. What’s important is that the new life be one that I can sustain.
Will my new life include sharing this blog with my family? Maybe. But not today.
This is what I know so far about my new life:
It will include chocolate, puppies, fuzzy socks, candles, cuddling, presents, blueberries, coffee, and sunshine.
It will include working hard, but not too hard.
There will be people, but not too many people. Politics will be avoided. And complaining.
This life will include rules, but most of them can and will, probably, be broken.
There will be lots of books, and blogs, and Internet searches.
Time will occasionally be wasted.
Goals will be set, and projects will be done. But allowances will be made as well.
There will be shopping, baking, swimming, boating, organizing, and lots of sleeping.
There will be no wine, and I will take good care of me.