Pretty much no one in my everyday life truly understands my issues around alcohol.
The husband: says he doesn’t care whether I drink or don’t drink but gets mad when I over drink. When I explain that I don’t intend to over drink, he says he understands, but I don’t think he really does. And when I talk about benefits of being sober, he looks at me with what appears to be sympathy, like I’m trying to make the best of my sorry situation.
I am not looking for pity.
The son: views my abstinence as an interesting challenge and wants to play along. So he has given up soda. But when he sees my sober books and such, he wonders allowed about this new obsession.
I said I’d rather be obsessed with sobriety than drinking.
The daughter: has a strong reaction anytime the subject comes up. She was angry with me for drinking again after I quit last year. Now she says I’m good at quitting but not good at staying quit. She believes I should not drink ever because I’m “not good at it.”
Of course, she is quite correct.
I know this is exactly why people seek out sober communities like AA. I’m not there yet, but maybe someday. For now, I’m just very grateful to have discovered Belle and the rest of the online sober-verse
1. an unexpected day off due to snow
2. a lovely afternoon shopping with the daughter yesterday
3. coffee in bed
mounting to-do list of eye/tooth/hair appointments needed (I think we’re up to five and only one is for me)
Happy Sober Monday,