I think this new sober life project thingy is more about the journey than the destination. Or maybe it’s both?
So lately I’ve had this new feeling, but I haven’t till now tried to articulate it, I think out of fear that I might chase it away. It’s a good feeling… peaceful? happy? content? A single word doesn’t really come to mind. It’s a lessening of anxiety. A comfort in just being. I want to say it’s that I’m feeling free, free of cravings, of angst, of worries about the imaginary future. But it seems too soon for that and I don’t want to fall into a pit of despair (drama anyone?) if it doesn’t last. So let’s just say I’m feeling cautiously optimistic that my life is going to turn out awesome. 😉 That maybe my life is actually already awesome and I’m finally far enough away from the booze soaked haze to be able see the truth of it.
Yep, today was a better day than yesterday.
Gratitude: nontoxic me, amazing kids, lovely husband, rewarding work, adorable doggies. All that and the new cleaning person is coming tomorrow.
Happy Sober Tuesday,