Twenty two weeks and two days into this new sober life, seems like a good enough time as any to check in and assess how things are going.
Sleep – Getting to sleep is easy and great. I still sleep more lightly than I would like, but if I wake up, I can usually go right back to sleep. No more wide awake (for an hour or longer) and sick in the middle of the night. I often wake up before my alarm now. Most days I seem to want a nap in the afternoon. I can sleep for an hour in the afternoon and still go to bed at my usual time. I have no idea if this is normal or even normal for me, but those naps do feel good.
Desire for Alcohol – I can’t remember the last time I had a real honest to goodness craving. I do sometimes still have feelings of jealousy for those who are drinking wine happily. I still try not to think about drinking, but the whole situation is easier now for sure.
Mood – This has been a really good week. I’m feeling peaceful and steady and hopeful about the future. Overall my moods seem to be more even-keeled with normal ups and downs that are less extreme. I still suspect that my mental health is strongly affected by the weather and the amount of sunshine in any given day.
Relationships – I am more present and more patient and more purposeful with my kids. I find myself noticing and appreciating happy interactions with the husband. I also feel stronger about standing up for myself and asking that my needs be met too. I used to spend so much time covering and feeling guilty that I felt like I was in no position to be asking for much of anything besides forgiveness.
Miscellaneous – better skin, brighter eyes, more money, more productivity, more reliable, no memory loss, healthier gut, etc.
Weight is the same, but with dessert at least once a day, that’s a win.
Am I forgetting anything?
Happy Sober Thursday,