Way back in January I decided on a word of the year – change. And yes, quitting alcohol has been a big change, with lots of ripple effect changes added on.
So many positive changes – improvements in sleep quality, energy at work, self-esteem, and overall health and wellness. I no longer believe I’m slowly but actively killing myself. I no longer pretend to remember things that I don’t.
I’m never “tipsy” around my kids. I’m never “sleeping” when someone needs me. These things are huge.
Notice I didn’t mention finances – I suspect (unapologetically) that I spend every wine penny saved, treating myself nicely with sweets, and clothes, and manicures, and whatever else I decide I need very badly. 😋
These are all good things, and when you think about it, probably on their own make quitting worth it, maybe even more than worth it.
But lately I’ve been struggling. I’ve been feeling out of sorts, mad and sad, with some free floating anxiety sprinkled in. I’m finding myself focused on negative things, feeling resentful, even angry, about things from long ago, water that should be way under the bridge.
So I start to look around, seeking a quick fix, wanting to feel better. Sugar? Sleep? Nope. Nope. Bath? Shopping? Not so much. Wine? Absolutely not an option. Doesn’t need to be an option, surely.
So I think it’s time for another change. I think I need to give exercise a more serious try.
Remember the running shoes? And the yoga? Way, way out of the picture. And now the weather is changing for the worse and the days are getting shorter. A terrible time to try to take up outdoor exercise. But guess what! We happen to own a treadmill. Now I’ve never used this contraption, but certainly I can learn. 😋
So I’m going to try for one more big change in 2018. Exercise as a habit, a routine, part of a healthy lifestyle. Please wish me luck. And determination.
Today I felt good about:
1. completing some at-home projects.
2. a lovely conversation with a fellow mom.
3. watching my son play basketball, and really play hard.
4. trying, and liking, a new dish at a neighborhood restaurant.
5. watching football and rooting for the “wrong” team. ☺️
Happy sober Sunday,