I know I don’t need anyone’s permission to quit drinking. And I know that if I say this is really what I need to do to be healthy, those who love me will support it.
The thing that bothers me though is that they don’t understand it. They don’t understand why I can’t just drink the way they do.
The husband is a prime example. He likes to drink sometimes, but he always decides how much or how little he’s going to drink. And he sticks to it. So then when I overdrink, he feels like I’ve done it on purpose.
He has been very quiet about my sobriety thus far. No questions. No comments. I told him I’m taking 100 days off and he’s just sort of taking it in stride. The last time I quit, I tried to engage him in some of my ruminations but it never seemed to go the way I wanted it to, so this time I have kept my thoughts mostly to myself.
It’s very hard to discuss The Voice with someone who has never heard it.