Do you ever have imaginary conversations with people in your head? Me too.
I had one of these conversations running through my mind yesterday to the point that I felt like shouting- get out of my head! And this was someone whose opinion really shouldn’t matter much to me. Making its presence in my mind all the more annoying.
How about projecting opinions on people that they’ve never expressed? Like – I’m sure he thinks he would handle being sober differently (better) than this. Or – I’m sure he sometimes wishes I would go back to drinking. Or – I’m sure she thinks I’m making too much of things. Or – they probably think I’m judging them for their drinking behaviors. So many things. Maybe none true.
Then there are the predictions. I’m sure he’ll say something about my attitude soon. He’ll say – this isn’t working or this has got to stop. And then it doesn’t happen. Instead he offers to make me coffee.
Is this why people meditate? (Probably a good idea, but I tend to find the time for it when I’m tired, try to do it while lying down, and then fall asleep! Enjoyable, but not exactly the point.)
I remember an acquaintance once commenting, “I try not to think about things.” At all? She was a big drinker, so maybe there’s a connection there.
Do sober people think too much? Or is it just me? Maybe it’s partly this phase two navel-gazing period that’s to blame. Or maybe it’s the real me coming through after years of being silenced by alcohol.
I guess time will tell.
Happy Sober Sunday,